Fresh Start

You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing that we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down. Mary Pickford


I broke down yesterday and went to the rhumatologist. Not because I wanted to but because I really didn't have a choice. The difference between falling down and staying down I suppose. And I refuse to stay down. I took the methotrexate shot yesterday and started the steriods again. I hate them...the side effects and all that goes with it BUT I love how I feel when the RA is under control...when my life is somewhat under control. I have lots to do and lots to be thankful for...so I will take the meds and start fresh. Today. No looking back over the last 6 months and all of the "falling down." I start today...with today and today only. The things I want and need to do to make myself and my boys happy. Just today. No more, no less. A fresh start.